Friday, January 28, 2011
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Anyhoo, here are 5 guys I find attractive. (all photos found via Google)
1. James Dean. Love him! And I am lucky that my husband has the same James Dean-y vibe. One of his proudest moments was when our little 3-year old friend, Mila, pointed to the picture of James Dean hanging in our bathroom (photo from Giant - bathroom is cowboy themed), and said "That's Wob!"
2. Mike Ness.
3. Johnny Depp
4. Christian Bale
And I have to add that of course, I don't think any of these men hold a candle to my husband, who in all honestly is the best looking man I have ever laid eyes on.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
Oh, and I saw a hilarious show about hipsters last night called Portlandia (IFC). Freaking hilarious, I highly recommend it.
So yeah, obviously I watch way too much TV. Of course, my excuse is that I actually concentrate on things better when the TV is on. :)
Sunday, January 23, 2011
And so I took and take classes that I found interesting, regardless of my degree path. 7 years, 5 schools, and hundreds of credits later, I'm still plugging away. Many people would question my judgment, but I remain unconcerned.
But I better jump off my soapbox before I start talking about the bigger conspiracy to keep society uneducated and indoctrinated. :)
Learning = excellent.
* I feel like I had the opportunity to take my education into my own hands. I don't think everyone feels that empowered. I do assume that my (future) children will be in public school, so I am not writing off the entire system. I am just going to my best to make sure my children will be proactive in their educations so that they develop a passion for knowledge, in the classroom or out.
Friday, January 21, 2011
Thursday, January 20, 2011
A big low was not winning the Mega Millions lottery. I was heartbroken. In all seriousnes, 2010 sucked really hard for me, my husband, our families and many of our friends. But I am trying to focus on the positives for 2011. Luckily nothing major has happened yet (knock on wood). As far as highs, I guess I would say that the long-anticipated new Social Distortion album is a pretty fantastic high point for 2011 thus far. I also bought a new comforter which was a long time coming. So, yeah, pretty boring month so far!*
*Actually something very very cool did happen this month, but I can't say what that was quite yet.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
I'm not really much of a pop culture follower in general... not fashion, not trends, not music. There certainly are bands that are mainstream that I like, and I'm not really into the underground elitism either, it's more of a matter of I like what I like and I don't pay attention to whether or not others do, too. Most of the concerts I go to are small and cheap and in dirty old theaters. I like punk, rockabilly, psychobilly, oldies (maybe even some classic rock on a good day) with a little indie music sprinkled here and there. Oh, and a touch of hip hop, although mostly in the vein of atmosphere and his ilk. I really love West Coast music too - surf, rockabilly, Sublime, etc. Anything that feels appropriate for the beach!
Sometimes the bands I like are on MTV, but more often than not, they aren't. Don't like Lady Gaga, don't care for most rap, don't even like classic pop icons like Madonna or Michael Jackson. Just not my bag. I never listen to the radio which means I have to resort to the Internet and word of mouth to find out about new bands.
I would list some of my favorites but then that would violate my no favorites rule (see previous post), and I would feel compelled to list everyone and everything I love. Instead I just list the last 5 cds I bought.
1. Social Distortion -Hard Times and Nursery Rhymes (came out yesterday!!!!!)
2. Frank Turner - Poetry of the Deed (Awesome!)
3. The Best of Dick Dale & The Del Tones
4. Brian Setzer Orchestra Christmas album
5. Munly and the Lepercalians - Petr and the Wulf (a side project from the ever creepy Munly from Slim Cessna). I love Slim Cessna and so I feel compelled to support all side projects. The is an interesting cd to check out... it is their version of Peter and the Wolf.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
1. My husband, Rob. He just get more awesome every day. *Mostly. He can be a real dick some days, but he usually makes up for it.
2. My mom. She is one of my best friends.
3. Kyle, my best friend. Always has been there for me and I have no doubt that she always will.
4. The rest of my family. Call it a cop out, but I really do love my extended family, warts and all.
5. The Garcias. It is very rarely that I feel connected with people past a superficial level. There are a lot of people that I am friendly with, and that I like to hang out with, but it is a short list of people who I feel close to. The Garcias are on this list for sure. Despite the fact that they live several states away, I feel like they are "real" friends, no questions asked.
Monday, January 17, 2011
Sunday, January 16, 2011
*Woke up and asked Rob to get me my cinnamon crunch cereal (it is organic and whole grain, so totally okay for an adult to eat).
*Watched tv, played Angry Birds, and lounged in bed for a few hours (I wasn't feeling so awesome).
*Managed to make it to the couch while Rob did a Starbucks and Einstein's run.
*Ate a bagel.
*Played Angry Birds.
*Cleaned up my back room (our craft room/dog room/rec room) while watching trashy TV (ID).
*Cleaned up my kitchen.
*Played Angry Birds.
*Ate another bagel.
*Cleaned up my front living room.
*Read a little bit.
*Played Angry Birds while Rob bathed the dogs.
*Spent an hour debating what to make for dinner, played Angry Birds.
*Got on the Internets.
Note the lack of "showered," and "applied makeup." Today was just one of those days. Yesterday I was up and clean and gussied up and I ran all over town. Today, I relaxed.
1. The Misfits/Hollywood Babylon
2. Dresden Dolls/Good Day
3. Waylon Jennings/Amanda
4. The Killers/When You Were Young
5. The Creepshow/Grave Diggers
6. Ralph Rebel/Rockabilly Vampire
7. Reverend Horton Heat/Indigo Friends
8. Cradle of Filth/Tearing The Veil From Grace
9. Tiger Army/American Nightmare
10. Bad Religion/I Want To Conquer The World
Thursday, January 13, 2011
This is another toughie. I could say my dad, I could say my husband (really, it was quite unexpected), I could say that is Kyle, my best friend, who made life in Colorado bearable for me. Of course there are tons of other people as well. Or my friend Julie who I met when I was 19 and waiting tables. She taught me a lot about life. I can't summarize my Julie experience in just a few sentences but the anniversary of her death (6 years can go by so quickly!) is coming, so I will say more about her another day. She died far too young and I can honestly say her death made a lasting impression as well.
I think that many people who make their presence known in our lives leave a lasting impact in some way.
I am definitely a very (overly) sensitive and empathic person, so sometimes the strangest chance meetings make the most impression on me.
The drunk that shared a cigarette break with me and Rob years ago in front of the Skylark, for one. His name was Charles and he was walking home after having bought himself some new boots. He stopped and started talking to us. He told us that love was the most important thing, and that his drinking drove away his wife, Mavis. He said he missed her and loved her and that we looked like we were in love and so we must remember to keep each other first. Then he walked home.
Or the former Charles Schwab V.P. that we sat next to at the counter at The Breakfast King. He lost a lot of money in recent years (although he admitted that it was a drop in the hat for him), and decided to pursue ranching instead of anything involving money. He was down-to-Earth and earnest, and reminded us of the virtue of simple pleasures.
Another one would be the man that my mom and I talked to in Costco a few weeks back. He was retired, but had drove car trailers full of new cars for a living. He said that people would always joke about him leaving one in their driveway. He said that he had always thought that if he won the lottery, he would load up a trailer with paid for cars and do just that... When someone randomly joked that he leave one in their driveway, he would! I found that to be very sweet and kind.
Or the homeless man that I startled with my crying during a particularly bad (and stupid) fight that Rob and I were in downtown (we were 21 so don't judge too harshly). Rob had walked to our car ahead of me and I couldn't remember where we had parked. A sleeping homeless man popped up as I walked by (there was also a police officer trying to help me find the car), and I screamed because I was startled. He looked at me and said, "Why are you crying miss, don't cry. I just lost my daddy, so please don't cry." He said it very kind and sincerely, and all I could say was that I was so sorry, so sorry. But it only made me sob harder. I was reminded that there are people living harder lives and dealing with much more tragic things than a fight with their boyfriend. He provided me perspective in the most unassuming of ways. And yes, I found Rob and my car and we got over the fight and went home and got married, the end.
I could go on forever. Some days I just send out signals, vibes, call it whatever into the universe, I just project that I am thinking about the lonely and the marginalized. That I am appreciative of what the anonymous masses have to offer. And that I want them all to know that I am thinking of them. Not sure if that makes sense. Doesn't have to, I guess.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Hard to say, not because I'm not satisfied with what I have, but I'm not sure that I can think of one specific moment that defines it. I love my husband, but I certainly didn't feel satisfied after our wedding. It was a good feeling buying my first house at 23, but that didn't make me feel wholly satisfied. I guess I hope that the moment of total satiation is still coming. Maybe when I finally have a child or when I finally have the balls to do something that I like with my life. I have to say that the most satisfaction I find is when I am surrounded by my family, especially when I am in California with my extended family.
Other moments of satisfaction include when my dogs are curled up next to me, when I am enjoying good times with my friends and feeling like there is nothing I can't take on head first, or when I am half awake first thing on a weekend morning and Rob and I are just laying there, not doing anything at all.
Day 9 - What I hope my future looks like
I hope to see children and my own business (with friends as business partners). I hope for a long life with my husband. I hope to see my goals met. I hope there is travel and adventure ahead. Mostly I hope to be happy. And I hope that those around me find their happiness too.
I don't know where this life will take me and I don't want to know either. I want to imagine all possibilities fully and hopefully enjoy where I end up. If that makes sense.
Monday, January 10, 2011
Day 6 is a photo of yourself and 30 random facts about yourself. I did thirty things about me recently and I don't know that could come up with another 30 so I will 6 random things about myself instead.
1. I took dance lessons from the time I was 4 until my teenage years.
2. I really love lemon flavored/scented things. I also love berries and almond flavored desserts.
3. I am brainstorming HARD about several different side business opportunities. It is my goal to have a different working situation by the end of 2011.
4. I have a big secret/surprise that I cannot wait until I can share with the world.
5. I love trivia. A secret ambition is to be on jeopardy.
6. I read a lot. Books, magazines, blogs; I love it all.
Day 7 is discussing my zodiac and if my sign fits me.
I am the cardinal fire sign, an Aries. And while I do not take too much stock in astrology, I do have to admit that I posses many of the typical Aries qualities. The full description can be found at the link below.
Aries Strength Keywords: - Independent
Aries Weakness Keywords
- Short tempered
I can agree with a lot of the strengths. And I will admit to several of the weaknesses as well. The one thing that I strongly disagree with is the self-involved trait. I really don't see myself as self-centered or selfish at all. And many days I wish I was more selfish! I can be impatient and short-tempered, so I will own up to that, but I also have to disagree with the impulsiveness. I do take chances, but they are always calculated.
Some of the similarities... I think that I am caring, prone to activism, and quick to action. I do want to succeed and I do struggle with self-doubt, but overall my optimism prevails.
Saturday, January 8, 2011
I say this thankfully, because I know that there are many people who have been a bad place where they cannot see the sunlight ahead.
Friday, January 7, 2011
Tricky to answer this in a few sentences. It's a pretty weighty topic to engage in depending on the direction you take it in. Alcohol and drugs are certainly a mixed bag as a societal issue. I have seen the aftermath of addiction and it is not pretty, but I also respect the cultural aspect of engaging in these activities. I personally enjoy beer, wine, and cocktails (in moderation) but I don't partake in any illegal drugs. Denver is a great city for beer, and more and more, pot as well (the medical marijuana industry is far bigger here than even in California from what I have seen). Not my bag, personally, but I do know many people with their "cards," and I don't judge. I hope that people make smart decisions for themselves and while something may not be for me, I won't look down on people who live their lives differently. I do believe in modern medicine and will mostly take a pill that is prescribed if there is no other way to handle the problem (pain-killer, antibiotics), but I do try to limit excessive medication. Moderation is key for me!
As far religion goes... I describe myself as a "recovering Catholic." I grew up in an Italian Catholic family and while I do not believe in organized religion (or religion period), there is a huge familial tie to Catholicism that I just can't break - hence the "recovering" part. I will always have that in my soul. I grew up with religion in my head and my words, but it never translated to my heart. As an adult I describe myself as a secular humanist. I believe in people and being good because, well, you want to be good. Not because someone is leading you in that direction. But again, I don't judge those who feel differently (full disclosure -I do hate on some whacked out religions in my own home, but I would never publicly mock something so personal as religion). I have friends of all persuasions, so I certainly don't use that as friendship criteria. I think that I am lucky that I grew up in such a diverse place (San Francisco Bay Area), because I have a healthy understanding of world religions and not just Christianity.
When I do have children, I want to let them make religious choices on their own. If they want to explore church, any church, I will encourage that. I want my kids to be aware of Christianity, Islam, Judaism, Buddhism, etc. because I would want them to do whatever makes their heart happy. As someone who studied a lot of social science, I understand the societal need for religion. When Marx said that religion is "opiate for the masses," I get the point he was making. Not that it was frivolous or unhealthy, but that the beaten down masses needed something to look forward to, something to make all the madness make sense. And I don't mean to sound arrogant... I'm not the one who said it in the first place... but I get why it works for a lot of people world wide. And I will be the first to admit that I come at the world from a Christian view point and that perspective dies hard. But I also will admit that I don't think that is the *only* way to live. And some days, when I really think how many wars have been waged in the name of religion, I think back to John Lennon's words... "imagine... no religion." And it makes sense to me - sometimes something meant to uplifting and life affirming can turn into something ugly and controlling.
But like I said, I am all for live and let live. As corny as it sounds, I want to be around happy and healthy positive people and I am all for whatever makes someone that way.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
I am hoping that in the next 10 years I somehow figure out how to put the corporate world (or in my case, the government-ran R&D world) long behind and start my own business.
It's kind of scary to think that in 10 years I will be 35, but then I remember that 10 years ago I was 15. A lot can happen in 1 year, let alone an entire decade, so I have no real idea where I will end up. But as long as I am with my family, healthy and (relatively) happy, I can't ask for much more.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Kyle has been my best friend for 12 years now. She was my maid of honor and basically is (as she puts it), my sister from another mister. And this is what she gave us (along with some other really cool items):
In case you don't know, this is Mike Ness, the front man for Social Distortion. Which of course is the band that wrote Highway 101. And is mine and Rob's favorite band of all time. This drawing is based on an actual photo, and when we first saw it, Rob thought it was a photograph. This picture doesn't even do it justice... it is so vibrant and detailed in person.
So what I am trying to say is she is pretty talented. Also, she does custom work... tattoos, drawings, etc. (Visit her blog!)
Thanks again Kyle! Rob and I love it!
We talked on the phone for (literally) hours each night for the following few days... we met on a Friday, and "hung out" for the first time that following Wednesday. We had an official date that following Friday. After talking until the early morning, I realized that it would be rude to send him on his way, as he had an hour or more drive back to his house, and so I offered to let him sleep on my floor. The next morning he woke up and said that he didn't feel like going home. And he didn't, pretty much ever again. He made the almost two hour commute to his job, stopped by house on his lunch break, and then came back to my house after work. I believe that he spent exactly one last night at his house before officially moving in.
Yes, in retrospect it was crazy but we were young (20) and very much in love. And it just worked for us. We are both really intense and emotional and it was a very exciting time. Not to say that we didn't have our struggles - we faught, we even broke up once (and almost called off our wedding), but in the end we knew we were where we belonged. And since getting married life has only gotten better. We had a lot of people doubting us and a few even working against us. Once we got married and told the world to back off, everything seemed to fall into place. And every day I fall more and more in love with Rob. I know that I am lucky. He not only an awesome husband, but the best friend I could ask for.
I had this written out much more poetically but I am not sure where that file is so this will have to do. Since I'm sure my creeper husband will eventually read this (he likes to check up on me :P), it probably better kept short anyway - keeps the eye rolls to a minimum.
Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 04 - Your views on religion.
Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.
Day 06 - A photo of yourself and write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
Day 08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
Day 09 - How you hope your future will be like.
Day 10 – Someone who came into your life unexpected and made an impact.
Day 11 - Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
Day 12 - Bullet your whole day.
Day 13 - Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
Day 14 – A photo of a cherished memory.
Day 15 - 5 people in your life right now who mean the most.
Day 16 - Your views on mainstream music.
Day 17 - Your highs and lows of this past year.
Day 18 – Something that makes you laugh.
Day 19 - Disrespecting your parents.
Day 20 - How important you think education is.
Day 21 - One of your favorite shows.
Day 22 – Something you want to do before you die.
Day 23 - Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive.
Day 24 – Somewhere you would like to travel.
Day 25 – A photo you took.
Day 26 - What kind of person attracts you.
Day 27 - A problem that you have had.
Day 28 - Something that you miss.
Day 29 - Goals for the next 30 days.
Day 30 - Your highs and lows of this month.