Tuesday, May 8, 2012

A terror as old as life itself...

We are back from The Old Country (or as you may know it, Jersey City) in one piece. I'll write a bit about the trip later this week, but for now I want to address The Hunger Games. I tried to ignore the fervor. I assumed that even though everyone else said they loved it, I wouldn't. Post-apocalyptic action stories written for middle-schoolers just isn't my bag, right? WRONG. I finally caved and read The Hunger Games while in NJ last week. Then I read Catching Fire. Then Mockingjay. All three in five days. So I may have come to the party late, but I did show up and that's all that counts.

Surprisingly enough, my favorite quote out of the whole series was not about any of the major themes of the book, but rather a line about pregnancy. So as not to give anything away to anyone left on the planet who hasn't read the book, I will just say that a character at some point in the book said this and it summed up how I felt when I was pregnant:

"When I first felt her stirring inside of me, I was consumed with a terror that felt as old as life itself. Only the joy of holding her in my arms could tame it."

Since my first Mothers Day is fast approaching, I can't help but reflect a lot on the last year and a half, from the time I found out I was pregnant to today. So that quote of course struck a chord with me. Because even thought I wanted a baby, I planned on having a baby, I hoped I was pregnant; when I found out I was pregnant, the first emotion that registered was terror. For so, so many reasons. And truly, when she was placed in my arms, so many of the things I feared just went away*

This was taken last week in New Jersey. I love this picture of my girl and me!

*note: I said many went away, not all. And some new ones popped up, but of a completely different ilk. But I digress.

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